I am starting to believe that I am cursed.
I even know what day it started: December 17th, 2011. Life before that day was great. Afterwards has been a parade of bizarre mishaps. Don’t believe me? Think I’m exaggerating? Allow me to present Exhibit A: This Past Week.
My son’s bike got stolen. The dog gets out of the house and smacks into a truck and now has to get to the vet. A neighborhood kid lets himself in our house and walks away with Xbox games. The same kid returns today showing off a razor blade and now our kitten is missing. This isn’t even dipping into crazy people you thought were friends being… well crazy. Or watching some guy taser another to steal a bicycle. Those are just the highlights. Now picture a similar week playing over and over since last December 17th.
It’s enough to make me want to start smoking again or grab a baseball bat and start smashing things… or start smoking while smashing things. The universe obviously has a message for me. The incredible bad luck/curse/opposition/insert your term here can’t be coincidental. There is a definite message here and I’m starting to think God and the Universe is telling me something. I want the message to be “Grab a hammer and destroy everything” but I suspect it’s probably something nicer.
I wish I were The Hulk because I’d smash the world. If I had laser eyes I’d burn everything into pools of molten waste. I want to tear down buildings with my bare hands. I want to scream at the people who are messing things up but I can’t. I can only rage silently and wonder… why is it that the innocent things in the world, like kids and kittens, are what get hurt?
Please forgive my rant. If you see me tomorrow the storm will have passed and I’ll be smiling again. Pity and sympathy embarrass me so I’m quick to send them on their way. I don’t really want to smash the world because that’s what’s wrong now – there’s too much angry smashing. If that kid took our kitten it’s because he’s also hurting. I know this. What I don’t know is what can I do… how can I fix it… how can I stop it from happening again?
Is that the message I’m missing?
Sometime there is no message. It’s just a whole lot of crap that sucks. We may be in the same loop when it comes to this kind of thing – but mine has been going on for about the last three years. Sometimes we just have to grin, pretend to the world that everything is ok, even when we want to use a sonic blast and level towns.
You’re a strong lady, and you try to make sense out of everything. We all do. But unfortunately, crappy things just happen because crappy things happen. The upside to this. It won’t always be crappy. Sorry I don’t have any wonderful words of wisdom or enlightening messages, but know you have someone who “gets it.” Call me if you need anything, woman. That’s what friends are for…
I love you Amy! I’m really bad about talking to anyone when I’m upset tho. I love having a laugh afterwards but during a crisis I get withdrawn and focussed.
I suppose this is why I was never granted super powers. God knew someone might steal my kitten and I’d go Armageddon on everyone!
It’s okay mom! Sometimes life is just crappy no rhyme or reason to it. If I had the money id so come down there an run the kid who took the Xbox games over. Or steal that other kids taser tase him and the Xbox kid. As you know though for now I cannot so just make a list of whose butts you want me to kick for when i can save up enough! Love you!
Hello Oldest Girly! We got the kitten back… that’s what’s important. A combination of greed, guilt and a crazy woman stalking his house set things straight. I’m just so glad no harm was done!
Angela,
Venting is good sometimes! It really stinks when it feels like things won’t let up. Recently, my grandmother got sick and passed away. Ten days later my dad had a cardiac arrest (recovering thank goodness), but this then progressed to drama about addressing my mother’s hoarding problem…
Perhaps the only message is that stuff happens and to let us know that we’re actually a lot stronger than we think we are.
I hope next week is better for you!